On A Role

So today was a very productive day. I woke up, did school, and got 2 1/2 assignments done. Tomorrow I might have the same number or maybe 3; depending on the assignments. I had dinner; macaronie and cheese. And the kind that I made, usually makes me sick, but today, I felt fine. I went to work and got everything set up in like 5 minutes, and then just waited to let people in. I just feel like I'm on a role today, or rather "felt" because the day is now over and I'm going to be heading off to bed pretty soon here. But gosh... I just want it to be like that everyday. It felt really good. I got to play with Denali for a little bit today. I mean, sometimes she comes in and I have to tell her to get out because I'm doing school, which I don't like to do, but.... I need to get it done. Tonight however, she came in my room when I was getting ready for work and she pretended to do her hair while I actually did mine. She also helped me with the macaroni, and while the noodles were cooking we danced in the kitchen for a little while. And my Mom didn't get mad at me today.
I just feel so happy right now, and I just wish that everyday could be like today; and maybe I can make it so. That is if I can be as productive as I was today, everyday. Though tomorrow, I'm going to try and get up to at least 2 or 3 assignments done tomorrow, and I also have to clean my room, cause it is such a mess.
I have 9 more assignments that I have to get done, which means that I could be taking my final next Monday, or even on Friday, if I could get more done a day. Now that is what happened today, let me tell you what happened yesterday, or rather a big something that happened yesterday......
My boss and I were taking out the trash and heading out to leave from work, when we saw the biggest bear. Well, it wasn't huge, but it was big, and it was just staring at my boss and I. It was just staring at us the whole time, while Tiff (my boss) was making some room so I could sit in her car. When Tiff started flashing her lights and stuff, that's when the bear finally went away, and we were able to put the trash in the dumpster. That was some bear, I'll tell ya.
Well, now that I've said that, I think that I'm going to head off to bed and wake up early to get somemore school work done. So, goodnight..... Oh and the moon just looks so awesome tonight. There was a halo around it. It looked so beautiful. Its just a shame that no camera would be able to get that kind of footage. Nothing taken from a camera is as beautiful as seeing it with your own eyes. I think that's a quote that I'm going to call my own- cause I haven't seen it anywhere, and it is a good quote if you ask me so.....:

"Nothing taken from a camera is as beautiful as seeing it with your own eyes."
-Kayla

Goodnight now..... and enjoy the beautiful moon and night sky. It really is a site to look at. Gorgeous.

.......

How do I feel right now? Hurt, sad, scared. When I came home tonight from work, I didn't expect my Mom to start getting mad at me. She said a lot of hurtfull things that I wish that she never said, because now they are ringing in my head. I don't think she knows how much she hurts me; and I don't fully know how much I may hurt her, but I just wish that she wouldn't say those things. I mean, I don't mean to hurt her. I don't do it on purpose, it just happens, sometimes, most of the time, with out me even knowing it.
I just wish that she knew how sad I feel almost everyday with the words she puts in my head. I wish she knew how hurt I am all of the time because I just feel like no one loves me, that no one wants me.
I love my Mom so much, no matter what she says; but what she says puts me on edge. I don't want to go back to my Dad's. In fact I don't care if I never see him again, because he hurt me so much. I have so many things that I wish that I could talk to my Mom about, but she doesn't always listen. I mean, she listens, but she doesn't take it in as I would like her to. 
I love my Mom, but IDK; she just doesn't believe in me anymore. And if she does, she doens't tell me; but I wish that she would. I just wish that I could have one day where my Mom doesn't get mad at me for something. I just don't have the energy to fight back, and try and tell her my side or how I feel. I just let her get it out. I mean, every now and then I'll try to say something, but IDK.......
I want things to be ok with us, but it doesn't help when she pushes me too hard- and not even realizes it.
I love my Mom, and I hope that she loves me too; and I hope that things can turn out ok with us too. I've already lost my Dad. I don't want to lose my Mom and Denali too.

Emo Susie, Uncle Matt & Olivia & Abigal

Well, today was like the best day. I got to see my Emo Susie, and my cousins Olivia and Abigal, and my Uncle Matt. I haven't seen them it what seems like forever. Though of course it kind of was forever because the last time I saw them was like 2 years ago. We didn't quite do much today. I mean we went to Barnes & Noble and looked at some books, of course, and stuff. Then we went to eat lunch, and then headed to the mall to let Denali and Olivia run around a little while Susie, Mom, and I talked and caught up and everything. It was really great. I miss them already. I was going to to try and see them next summer, if I was able to get a car, or save up enough money to go on a plane or something. But I think that I'd rather take a road trip. LOL, stop in Vegas or something on my way down there. It'd be fun, though might use a lot of gas/money on the way down there. I hope that I can see them soon. I'm just sort of bummed that I didn't get to see my Emo Chelsea and Tessa. I don't even remember the last time I saw them; but it has been a while.
Gosh, I just can't believe how fast Olivia has grown. She is just so big, and I've only seen pictures of Abigal, but she is getting big too. It's amazing how fast kids grow. Uncle Matt and Emo Susie were astonished at how fast I'm growing. All I could do was smile, LOL. I love them.
We took some pictures which Susie is going to send me so that I can post them both on this blog, and on my bulletin board. It just really sucked when they had to go, and when we had to go. I guess that goes to show that time sure flies when you're having a good time.
As for school, IDK if I'll be able to finish this English class in time, so I might have to take it with this new k through 12 program during the summer. The upside is that I'll have about a month and a half with no school. The downside, is that I'll be behind and I probably wont be able to graduate with my class. I'm just not up to doing more school over next summer, but what can I do? This class through WOLF is hard, and I just want to smack it. It's getting on my nerves, it really is. Anyway, I'm not going to like having to take classes over summer, but maybe if I'm lucky, and the classes through the new school program aren't as hard as WOLF, then I could possibly get through it a little faster. Who knows? That would be nice, I mean, the deadlines for the k-12 are just like going to the high school up here, but maybe if I understand most of it, I might be able to get ahead, and possibly work on my English class right before summer starts, so I could get done with it before summer is over and stuff.
And even if I have to do school over summer, I can still go visit my Emo Susie in Arizona because its all online. So all I'd have to do would be to bring my computer. Anyways, I think that I'm going to go, just because I would like to see how much I can get done before I go to bed, which believe me, will be soon because I'm just so tired. Everytime I go down to Reno, it just takes everything out of me, and I'm exhausted by the time I get back home.
So goodnight, and yes, I will try to post another poem soon. Its just hard getting the wording right. I want to be able to give the full meaning and make it sound beautiful, even though the watery slush of snow doesn't look or sound great. Goodnight, and best wishes to you all.

Thanksgiving

Ok, so yesterday was Thanksgiving, as all of you know; and my Mom made the best feast ever. She was cooking all day, which was torture because it smelled so good. I was just glad when we finally got eat, which was at like 3:45. Kind of early, I think, but IDK. Anyways, before dinner we all got dressed up for Christmas pictures, which I don't have, so I'm unfortunately unable to show you how great they turned out. Then we ate, and I was stuffed, so I waited a couple hours before having dessert. My Mom made some pumpkin pies too. Two of them in fact. Let's see..... She made a turkey, stuffing, potatoes, gravy, and yams. We had some apple cider to go with it. The turkey was delicious, and the potatoes was an experiment that my Mom was doing, and they are fantastic. I love them. They have sliced potatoes, thyme, butter, some sort of pepper seasoning (you'd have to ask my Mom), and some salt and pepper. It was so good. Yummm....
Anyways, it was a great thanksgiving. The only suckish part was that I had to do school while all of my friends got the day off. Upside, the food was great and I actually got some sleep last night.
When I woke up this morning, I felt refreshed and ready to get a lot of assignments done; but now I feel wiped out, stuffed, and ready to go to bed right now.
Did I mention that I finished my midterm, though it took two tries to get a good enough grade on it. The first try, I got an F, naturally; but the second time I got a C which is a lot better than a F. So how is school you ask? Well I'm supposed to be taking my final on Monday, but I still have, now 13 assignments to do before I get to that point. My term for this class doesn't actually end for 10 more days, but IDK... If I don't get everything done by Monday, there is a chance that I might be able to take my final sometime next week, and still be able to get everything done and have time to study. I'm just hoping, cause I really am not wanting to fail.
On my breaks, to clear my head an stuff, I read a book, talk to friends on facebook, and every now and then the phone, and that's pretty much it. Other times when I'm not doing school, I'm either sleeping or eating, or at work. So as you can see, this school is taking up my entire life right now. I just can't wait till next week when I can finally get this done.
Well, I'm going to go now, and try to get at least one more assignment done before I go to bed in an hour. Yes, I know that I'm going to bed early; but I need to change my sleeping pattern and that just tells you how tired I am. Usually I end up going to bed at like 1 or 2 in the morning. Sometimes even 3. So I'm trying to change that now. I don't want to end up getting sick because a lack of sleep. Getting sick is no fun.
So, goodbye, and I'll write updates of my life as soon as I can catch my breath.
Laters, and wish me luck on my final, and that I can get all of these assignments done to even take my final....

Proficiencies

Hello there. Well, this week I've been studying to take proficiency testing at the high school up here. Let's see..... yesterday I did the Math Proficiency, today I did the Writing and tomorrow I'm doing the Science. So I'm studying for that (science) so that I can pass that. I actually think that I did good on the math and writing proficiencies, but that's just a guess. The science one seems like its hard, but I'm still looking for a practice proficiency test to study from. This morning was a little crazy because I set my alarm for 5:45 this morning, and I was just so tired, 'cause I didn't even end up going to bed last night until like 11:00 because I was at work. Anyways, I set my alarm for 5:45 and I was tired so I just kept hitting the snooze button. I had to be at the school at 7:45, because that's when the test was. Guess what time I got out of bed this morning? At like 7:40. I look at my alarm clock and 7:40 is what it read. So right then I just became wide awake. I ran into my Mom's room and told her that we had to like light speed hurry, cause I was going to be late. I apparently scared my Mom and Denali from coming into the room so fast. So I got ready for school in like less than five mintues; getting warm clothes on, brushing my teeth, getting my purse and getting my shoes on and heading out the door. I didn't even have time to eat anything. I ended up getting at the school at like 7:50. Luckily testing was running a little behind because it took a while to set the chairs and tables up in the gym. After I found my seat, I just caught my breathe. Running up three sets of stairs is not easy. Yes, the high school is three stories, and the gym was on the third floor.
So there you go. I took my test, and then after I was done, I saw some of my friends before they we fnt to class, then I headed out of the school and headed down to the animal shelter: Pet Network Animal Friends, which is right next door to the high school. I waited there until my friends were leaving the school for lunch and hung out with my friend Megan during lunch.
After lunch I asked the office if I could have a pass so that I could go into Megan's sixth period class, which was ROTC. Anyway, I got the pass; cause you have to have a pass to walk around the school if you're not a student and stuff. Anyways, I spend the remainder of the high school in the ROTC building. Then after school I hung out with my friend Megan. After hanging out with Megan, my Mom called cause it was getting dark, so I had to go home....blah, blah, blah,,etc.etc.etc.
And now I'm going to go to bed, so goodnight, and wish me luck on my Science Proficiency tomorrow. I'm really going to need it.

2012

Let's see.....
Yesterday I saw the movie 2012, and let me just tell you that it was so good. Granted it was sad....I cried. Of course because like most people, I tried to hold in my tears, cause I hate crying in front of people. Anyways, it was really good, and I suggest that everyone go see it. It is scary though, just because it seems so real because of the scientific data, etc. I love the ending though. I mean, I know that all endings are good, but this was a great ending; well not the very very end, but a little before the end. I am so getting it when it comes on dvd.
Ok, so I am SO EXCITED for New Moon to come on Friday. Just like 4 1/2 more days till it gets here. We're having a midnight showing at the theater on Thursday night, and I so want to go, but... I'm just guessing that we are going to be sold out that night, so I'm not going to even bother. I'll see it on Saturday or something. Plus I'll take a peak every now and then while I'm working. And then the week after New Moon gets here, I think that we're going to get The Blind Side, which I do get, because that movie looks really good, and I want to see it.
Denali, my little sister is learning how to draw her letters/numbers. I was helping her a little bit this morning. She had a hard time doing the letter "x," number "5," and she was actually able to pick up the number "8" faster than I thought. She is really smart, and I seriously think that she's going to be a singer or actress when she grows up with all of her singing and everything.
.....Ok, I'm going to go to bed now. I'm so wiped out. We had a lot of people come to the movie tonight, and my eyes are killing me, not to mention my back from cleaning and moving stuff around. But no worries... It shall heal...LOL.
Niters, and GO SEE THE MOVIE 2012. It's really good...... Hey, do you know what's going to happen in 2012? Cause I mean, I don't think that the world is going to end, but I do think that an event is going to happen that will change the world. Sort of like 9/11, but possibly a little bigger and more worldwide.

This Dream

Ok, so before I head off to bed, I just can't get this out of my mind. It bugs me so much just due to the fact that my Mom said that I can't see him anymore. Ryan, whom my Mom told me not to see anymore, for reasons I'm not going to say.... I keep having dreams about him. How crazy is that? I mean, anyone... does that mean anything? Cause if it does I'm not hearing the message.
I mean I miss him a lot, more than anyone can ever know, and want to be able to see him again. Its just.....IDK, what Mom says is what goes. Which I don't like by the way. I'm 17, going to be 18 next year. My Mom shouldn't be telling me who I can and cannot date. Its just not right.
But IDK, just thought that I might add this because sometimes when you let things out, you feel better and it goes away. So maybe that was what I was hoping. I miss him already, but dreaming about him now, just hurts. I guess that's why I've been so tired. Haven't been able to sleep at night.
Well, wish me luck tonight. I need the sleep.

By the way... I might be changing this playlist before December, just because with our Christmas tree already put up in the livingroom, and seeing snow today, I'm kind of getting into the Christams spirit already. I might put a Christmas background too, if I have the time.
Ok, leaving now. Goodnight....

First Snow

Ok, so when I woke up this morning, guess what I saw? Snow! That's right, snow. We probably got about 3 or 4 inches, but it looked like it was more than that. It looked so pretty. But it didn't last long, at least by my house. The sun came out and melted like all of the snow, except in higher in the mountains of course.  Everyone kept telling me that there was still snow outside, but I stayed inside all day again, so I didn't see anything other than what was outside the windows.
I started to write a poem about it, but I haven't gotten very far. When I do happen to finish it though it will be titled "December," only because it sort of talks about what happens in December; the snow, Christmas, so just watch out for that on my other blog "The Art of A Learning Writer." That's where I'll be writing all of my poems and my book updates, and by book updates, I simply mean how far I've gotten in writing my book. Though I'll sometimes add what book I'm reading, what its about, and if I really enjoy reading it, I might talk more about it.
Anyways, I'm tired again, so I'm going to bed; and then waking up in the morning to start working on school again. You know I've gotten about half of the assignments done? I have a total of 31 assignments to do (including my midterm, but not final), and now I have 18 more to go. Hopefully I'll be able to get it all done before Saturday, if I'm lucky. I still have a lot of reading ahead for me. And for a lot of upcoming assignments, I have to write a short play or make a playwright script out of the last chapter of Huckleberry Finn; which I'm not too excited to do, just because I haven't even read the book yet, and I'm supposed to do this assignment on the last chapter, which will just ruin the book for me.
It wold be nice if WOLF told me to read the book first or something before giving me this assignment, or having me do it on a book I've already been told to read like "To Kill A Mockingbird" or "Of Mice and Men" or even "Lord of the Flies." IDK, I just can't wait till I get into this new program.
Anyways, I think that I'm going to be off to bed now. So goodnight and sleep tight.

Sleep Tight

Well, last night I didn't get as much sleep as I'd hoped. I ended waking up I'm guessing at like around 4 in the morning, but it might have been sooner. So right now I'm exhausted and am getting ready for my head to hit my pillow.
I'm still doing that English class, but I'm getting closer and closer to getting it done. I'm able to work past my midterm which I'm happy about, but I still have to try and get this class done by Saturday, and then start another class after that. Right now I have like 19 or 20 assignments to go, so I've got to get going on those. I'm going toward working on the easiest ones first, and then heading for the harder ones, cause once the easier ones are out of the way, I'll have no choice but to then hurry and do the harder ones. Wish me luck.
Anyways, lately I've just been working, working on school, and listening to music. Oh... and I've been doing some writing on my breaks or in my free time. Either that or reading one of my books.
Now, lets see what's new....... Oh yeah, well, we have to move out of the place we're in right now because, well Incline is expensive, so we're looking for a place up here that's no so expensive but still really nice and big enough for us. It will be interesting to move from one place to another up here. Let's just hope that we find a place before all of the snow comes crashing down. Otherwise it'll be harder to move things around.
Denali right now is going through a phase where she's afraid of everything. It's a bit annoying actually, but like I said, its just a phase. She doesn't want to go downstairs unless someone is going with her, even if someone is already downstairs. She's afraid that monsters are going to get her, and no matter what we say, Denali doesn't believe us (my Mom and I).
Anywho, 2012 comes to the movie theater up here on Friday, so I'll talk more about that when I actually see the movie. It doesn't look scary persay, but more, interesting.
Ok, so like I said, I'm tired, so I'm going to that place where one sleeps- in bed. So goodnight, and I'll write when I can...... School is just taking over all of my time right now........
Ok, goodnight, and sleep tight.

A Christmas Carol

Ok, so today I watched A Christmas Carol with my bestest friend, haha, Whitney. The movie was great, but if you have a kids about the age of 3 to 6 then don't take your kids, because its too scary. Whitney and I actually jumped a couple of times because there were some parts that you ,just don't expect. But the movie was great. Granted it seemed more about the animation than the story, but the movie was still great.
Now I'm going to turn in early for tonight, because my friend Whitney here is going to pass out, and I think that I might too. Goodnight all....
Oh and next up at the movie theater, we're getting 2012, and then NEW MOON!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!
Ok, night...

One & A Half

Ok, so I was unable to really get in my class today, because my deadline is over, so I have to wait for someone (This is why I'm bad at remembering names) to call me back so that I can hopefully get one more extension. But, though I was unable to get into my class today, I was able to get like an assignment and a half done today. Hopefully it'll be two by the end of tonight. After this class, my Mom wants me to one more class in WOLF, before I go to this new school program she is putting me in, which I'm glad by the way. Anyways, the next class that I'm hopefully going to be able to take is Math or in other words, Algebra 3-4. I don't think that this class has that many notes that I have to print out, at least not as much as this English class, which means that I can definitely get that class done in the time I'm supposed to. Then I can relax a little and hang out with my friends before I have to start this new program. This just makes me so happy, you have no idea. But I do have to say, that I am going to miss my teachers in WOLF. They are really nice. I really like my English teacher, Mrs. Green.
Anyways, I also updated my other blog, I guess you can say, so take a look at that. I put a new header on there, which I really like, and will probably just keep there, picture and all. Next I'm going to put somemore poems on there, and hopefully be able to talk about the book I'm writing without giving too much away. Well, on second thought, I'll actually just wait, because I still am unsure what direction my book is going to go. I got the beginning down, but the rising action, climax and resolution are still a work in progress.
Tomorrow up here, we have A Christmas Carol playing, which I'm definitely going to see. And no, its not going to be in 3-D, but for those of you who get dizzy and stuff wearing those 3-D glasses, this is a good thing. Over at the other theater in Kings Beach, Paranormal Activity is playing, which I'm not really up for seeing since I've just heard that it was extremely scary. And I'm already uneasy about watching scary movies as it is, so I'm not going to even bother. Plus my Mom doesn't want me to see it because after she saw the preview for it and after talking to her friend who saw the movie; she's just like "no way Kayla."
I'm happy though, because we're going to get New Moon up here, and I want to see it so bad. I have the preview memorized because I've seen it in the theater and on the tv. I'd rather see the actual movie now.
Ok, so I'm in a very long process of cleaning my bedroom- just because I'm organizing it and cleaning it at the same time, so..... enough said. But I just wish that I didn't have all of these old school notes to go through. And yes, many people would say to just throw them away, but I actually like keeping some of my school notes, at least the stuff that I really don't know and would like to hold on to. And plus, once I have kids, they're going to be asking me for help on homework, and so if I keep at this math and stuff as much as I can, I should be able to remember almost everything without needing these notes anymore. IDK, just a thought.
I'm still wishing that I had those eye drops, but my eyes do feel better than yesterday, surprisingly. I'm actually going to try to go to bed early tonight. And when I mean early, I actually mean at like 10:30 to 11. But hopefully I can get to bed before then. I really do need the sleep.
Ok, so I'm going to make another graceful exit, and try to get ready for bed. Which reminds me, I still haven't eaten dinner.
Gotta go....

80s & 90s Month

Ok, so now it's 80s & 90s month which basically means that I have made a playlist of 80s and 90s music. Now some of this music may be from earlier than this or later than this. On some of the songs I'm not sure, but enjoy. I love all of these songs too.

I'm Still Here.... Don't Worry

Ok, so I haven't written in a while, and that is because I'm still trying to get this English class done. I hate this class now, well don't really hate it because its helping me with my writing; but still, this is ridiculous. I just don't want to do this class anymore. In fact I have to call my counselor or whoever else I can talk to, cause I just don't like her, to give me another extension. I now awfully regret not taking this class with another class. Then I might have actually gotten it done, but I can't do that now.
I'm just happy that my Mom is getting into this new online school program. Life will be so much easier, and my stress level will decrease. Anyways, let me say what's new......
I started another blog. This blog is about the things I write; poems, stories I'm in the process of writing or even books I'm in the process I'm reading. So I hope that you follow me on that:
http://www.alearningwriter.blogspot.com/
I'm also hoping to get myself some contacts and finally get rid of these glasses, but I have to be able to touch my eye first, which is a work in progress, but is still at the same time difficult. I just hope that I get passed it soon because I could really use those contacts right now. I can also use some eye drops. My eyes have just been irritating me like crazy.
Halloween was fun. Denali dressed up in the cutest kitty costume, and my Mom put some whiskers and a little eye shadow on that matchedd her costume. She had a lot of fun. When I get a chance I'll put a picture of her in her costume on here. What else....?????Hmmmm.......
Oh, Michael Jackson's: This Is It is playing up here at the movie theater right now. And I don't even know how many times I've seen it now. I'm just glad that right now I don't have his songs stuck in my head. And might I add that my Mom is a big fan. We went to see the movie together, and she sang to every song during the movie. You know, I bet if she wanted to, she would have danced in the isle. The I went to see it a second time and this time Denali came along. She, unlike my Mom, was dancing in the isles. She looked so cute. And because I just didn't want to be in there anymore. I needed to stretch my legs and what not. I went upstairs in the projection room with my boss and other co-workers. Denali, only seconds later was up there with me, and dancing up there with my boss Tiff. It was so cute. Then the movie was over and Denali wanted to keep dancing. She wanted to go down on the stage, where the screen is, and dance and sing. But it was late so we had to go home and sleep.
Did I mention that Denali went trick-or-treating with my boss' kid, Isabelle? Well, yes she did, and she had a great time. So good in fact, that my Mom invited both of my boss' kids to come over to our house and play. I was at work at the time, so I didn't watch them play and possibly drive my Mom crazy. But my Mom said that they were good; had a few time-outs, but were still good. By the time Tiff and I got to my house the girls were in the livingroom, laying by the couch watching Alvin & the Chipmunks, quietly I might add. And when it was time to for everyone to leave and get ready for bed, the girls wanted to play somemore.... so enough said for any parents out there and know what I'm talking about.
....Well right now my eyes are burning through their sockets, so I'm going to turn in and get some sleep since there seems to be no school stuff for me to really do right now. (I can't get into my class right now because my "Term Ended," so I have to call somebody and get them to open my class for me again. Wish me luck, because I really need it. If I want to go to college and take English classes, then I have to be able to get A's in like all of my English classes.
Yes, I want to become a writer of some sort if you didn't catch that by now. So again wish me luck, and check out my other blog. Just keep in mind that because I'm trying to get this class done and others that will come in the near future I may not be able to write everynight. In fact, I know I'm not going to be able to write everynight, on this blog or my other one. But I will keep ya updated about what I'm doing and what I'm writing (on my other blog). So goodnight. These eyes of mine need to close and rest. Goodnight....